I feel so desperate....what should I do?

This is not the man for you and you surely must see that. He makes you feel bad about yourself and brings you down. Wait for true love,it will find you but you need to widen your circle a bit. Have a look at plentyoffish.com,i found my partner there after years alone when my husband died and we are very happy together. Don't settle for a man you don't love,he will make you lonely.............